Feelings
This past week I had an emotional time. I was all in my feelings. My heart hurt. I was sadder than normal. I was anticipating the "anniversary." 3 years? How? When? Not possible. And yet, there it was...January 14, 2018 was 3 years ago, and January 14 was coming up. The dread started in mid December. Looking back on those days will always bring the pain and anguish of watching my father die over weeks of time. There will always be a veil of darkness in front of my eyes as I remember every detail as though it were still happening. I probably seem quite depressed during those weeks to some as I relay my feelings through facebook posts or other ways. Here is my 1 year anniversary post while my feelings were still quite raw... Fearless . Honestly, I don't think it is depression that encourages me to put it out there for all to see. I have always been very good with emotions. I have never been good at--or even tried to, really--hiding my feelings. I am a cryer, I am a yeller